ON THE BOTTOM LEFT
IS MY HUSBAND AND I ON OUR WEDDING DAY. HE IS THE MOST WONDERFUL, AMAZING, AND CARING MAN I HAVE EVER HAD THE HONOR OF BEING AROUND. I STILL WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND CANT BELIEVE THAT I AM LUCKY ENOUGH THAT HE CHOSE ME TO LOVE. HE IS CURRENTLY IN IRAQ WITH THE MARINE CORPS. I CANT WAIT FOR HIM TO GET HOME TO ME AND MAKE ME COMPLETE AGAIN!
ON THE RIGHT IS OUR ADORABLE DAUGHTER CAYCEE KATHLEEN. SHE WILL BE ONE IN JULY. WHEN HER DADDY LEFT, SHE WAS BARELY TWO MONTHS OLD AND NOW SHE IS CRAWLING AND CLIMBING AND REALLY SHOWING HER "DADDY PERSONALITY" AS I LIKE TO CALL IT. HE HAS NO IDEA WHAT HE IS IN FOR WITH HER!
TOP LEFT WOULD BE MY LITTLE MAN, ZAKARY JOHN. HE JUST TURNED TWO LAST WEEK AND ITS KINDA SAD. HES NOT MY LITTLE BABY ANYMORE. BUT HE IS TALKING SO MUCH LATELY, AND IS JUST THIS AMAZING LITTLE BOY WHO BLOWS MY MIND EVERY SINGLE DAY.
I DECIDED I WOULD TRY THIS BLOGGING THING. MY MOM AND SISTER CURRENTLY HAVE PAGES SO I GUESS ITS WORTH A TRY. I LOVE TO WRITE BUT I JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME ANYMORE. THE ONLY TIME I REALLY DO IS WHEN THE KIDS ARE GONE FOR THE NIGHT. INSTEAD OF GOING OUT OR DOING SOMETHING EXCITING, I USE THAT TIME TO WRITE SOME NEW MATERIAL...I KNOW, BORING RIGHT? I WAS NEVER A BIG BLOGGER BUT I HAVE BEEN HAVING A ROUGH TIME LATELY SO I FIGURED WRITING THINGS OUT MIGHT ACTUALLY BE BENEFICIAL. MY ENTIRE LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS. MY HUSBAND WILL BE HOME MOST IMPORTANTLY AFTER BEING GONE FOR 7 MONTHS. I USED TO THINK THAT WHEN I GOT TO THIS POINT, I WOULD JUST BE ECSTATIC BUT THERES SO MUCH MORE TO IT, NOW THAT I AM HERE. I AM ECSTATIC DONT GET ME WRONG, BUT NERVOUS AS WELL. I KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE, BUT I HAVE BEEN BY MYSELF SINCE JANUARY, TAKING CARE OF THE KIDS AND DOING THINGS MY OWN WAY. NO JUSTIN IS BY NO MEANS THE PASSIVE TYPE...HE IS A POLICE OFFICER AND HAS THAT LOVABLE POLICE OFFICER PERSONALITY! LOL! I AM JUST NERVOUS THAT WE ARENT GOING TO BE THE SAME PEOPLE WE WERE BACK THEN AND IM NOT SURE HOW TO DEAL WITH THAT. THE OTHER ISSUE IS THAT WE ARE HAVING A HOUSE BUILT THAT WILL BE READY SHORTLY AFTER HE COMES HOME. I AM WORRIED ABOUT HIM BC THEY SAY HE NEEDS TIME TO GET BACK INTO HIS NORMAL LIFE AND MOVING ALL OF OUR BELONGINGS AND DEAL WITH ALL OF THAT STRESS DOESNT SEEM LIKE THE KIND OF DECOMPRESSING HE NEEDS. WE HAVE NEVER REALLY LIVED ON OWN TOGETHER AND DEFINETALY NOT SINCE THE KIDS WERE BORN SO ONE THING IS FOR SURE, I CANNOT WAIT TO START THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER AND RAISE OUR FAMILY IN OUR OWN HOUSE....GOD I CANT WAIT!
WELL ENOUGH OF MY COMPLAINING OR WHINING OR WHATEVER I CALL IT. I SHOULD TRY TO GET SOME SLEEP WHILE I CAN, NO KIDS TONIGHT. THEY ARE SPENDING SOME TIME WITH POPPA AND NANA.
UNTIL I KNEW YOU (FOR JUSTIN)
There was a time I didn't know happiness.
The kind that makes you smile for no reason.
The kind that makes you giddy with laughter.
The kind that lasts with you for weeks.
I never knew happiness until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know love.
The kind that makes you feel complete.
The kind that fills your heart.
The kind that lasts a lifetime.
I never knew love until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know devotion.
The kind that comes from looking into the eyes of a baby.
The kind that makes you feel what they are feeling.
The kind that holds your heart as tight as they hold your finger.
I never knew devotion until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know loneliness.
The kind that makes you want to pull the covers over your head.
The kind that makes your body ache with saddness.
The kind that no words or advice can take away.
I never knew loneliness until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know determination.
The kind that makes you stand up and do what is right.
The kind that sends you to foreign places and risk your life.
The kind that keeps you going strong when you want to fall apart.
I never knew determination until I knew you.
There was time I didn't know fear.
The kind that you wouldn't wish upon your worst enemy.
The kind that keeps you up at night.
The kind that makes you want to remember every last detail.
I never knew fear until I knew you.
There was a time I barely glanced at the American flag.
Never asked myself if a man in uniform was somebody's dad.
Never stopped dead in my tracks when I heard the national anthem.
Never though thinking about our country could make me cry,
Of course until I knew you, I never truly understood pride.
The kind that makes you smile for no reason.
The kind that makes you giddy with laughter.
The kind that lasts with you for weeks.
I never knew happiness until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know love.
The kind that makes you feel complete.
The kind that fills your heart.
The kind that lasts a lifetime.
I never knew love until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know devotion.
The kind that comes from looking into the eyes of a baby.
The kind that makes you feel what they are feeling.
The kind that holds your heart as tight as they hold your finger.
I never knew devotion until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know loneliness.
The kind that makes you want to pull the covers over your head.
The kind that makes your body ache with saddness.
The kind that no words or advice can take away.
I never knew loneliness until I knew you.
There was a time I didn't know determination.
The kind that makes you stand up and do what is right.
The kind that sends you to foreign places and risk your life.
The kind that keeps you going strong when you want to fall apart.
I never knew determination until I knew you.
There was time I didn't know fear.
The kind that you wouldn't wish upon your worst enemy.
The kind that keeps you up at night.
The kind that makes you want to remember every last detail.
I never knew fear until I knew you.
There was a time I barely glanced at the American flag.
Never asked myself if a man in uniform was somebody's dad.
Never stopped dead in my tracks when I heard the national anthem.
Never though thinking about our country could make me cry,
Of course until I knew you, I never truly understood pride.
DAYNA LYNNE BROWN
2 comments:
I love the blog Dayna. Don't worry - I know there will be a period of adjustment when Justin comes home, but you guys have been through much worse already - you'll get through it fine & I think you guys will be so happy in your new home!
Dayna, I love your blog!
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