kids came home today

i did a lot of running around today. just getting the errands done that are so much easier to do without the kids around. they stayed with grandma and grandpa until around 5pm. i even got a nap in! i cant even say when the last time i did that was!! it was nice...they are peacefully sound asleep right now. we had dinner, played outside on zaks trampoline, went for a walk (where zak sang to me and caycee the entire time), took our bath and went to bed. it was a nice night. zak said the word "off" today bc he wanted his shoes off...its just amazing how everyday he learns something else. justin isnt even going to recognize that kid when he gets home. and caycee, shes so damn cute. she gives kisses now...wide mouth and sloppy kisses but still the same. she is practicing standing up and attempts to take a step but shes afraid to fall. which surprises me bc she'll climb on anything she sees without having fear yet she wont try to walk....silly girl. she did have her first full blown temper tantrum today. i could have sworn she was too young for that but oh well. i gave zak a sucker and being the good big brother he is, he gave her some. and then let her hold it bc a lick just wasnt good enough for her. well when he took it back, caycees whole world came to an end....threw herself on the floor, the arms and legs went flailing...just crazy. so zak went over and kissed her bc she was so upset and the lil brat started hitting him bc she didnt want him around! man, i dont know if im ready for that kind of temperment...then again, i am married to that kind of temperment...lol. they made up later tho....zak was riding his little four wheeler through the kitchen and caycee decided to grab onto the back of it. so when he started driving, she ran right behind him holding on tight...in her lil "old lady" nightgown, or so jayci calls it. nonetheless, it was so cute and quite funny.
i talked to justin today for about 40 minutes or so. it was a good conversation. i can just hear in his voice everytime i talk to him how excited he is to get home. its still a few months away but he doesnt care...he's always so positive in everything he does...including this whole deployment. i never once heard him complain, or whine, or regret doing what he is doing and i admire that. it seems like i have a complaint every single day and i live a comfortable and wonderful life. and he is there in that extreme heat doing god knows what, without batting an eye....hence, why i never joined the military...just wouldnt last. i find myself living from phone call to phone call these days. it like recharges my batteries everytime he calls and it helps me get through the next few days. it was hard on fathers day and zaks birthday and all of that but i know it wasnt easy for him either. sometimes i have to remind myself of that!